You may never comprehend what life will hurl at you so I'm proclaiming it through my peepers. Stay at home mom and house wife who loves her man and handsome little man! Loving every second of this life and I couldn't have asked for a better one
I’m so mad! I finally blogged about something that’s been bothering me for weeks and I hit the “POST” button and it disappeared!
No matter how much you tell a person it could potentially end badly they don’tlisten, they still do what they want to prove everyone who doubted them wrong. What if the ones dated were right, witch lesson was better learners? We all make mistakes, no one is perfect, but after how many times that same mistake is made do you really learn? The failures one makes in life defines a person from the lessons they take from it, but how does one grow more if its the same one?
I’d rather sound like the bitch who warned you about the possibility of failure then the one who stood by and happily watched you walk into failure
So last week while watching my son do something, it dawned on me, “he should be the center of our lives always and not shared”.
Carlos has been continually saying since he was born he’s the only one I want and I’ve been saying I want one more cause that’s what I always wanted, now I’m on his page. We have a son to carry on the Brizuela name and he couldn’t be more perfect in every aspect, in our eyes of course but he really is baby jackpot.
Now the plan is for Carlos to get snipped and I don’t have to be on birth control ever again thankfully, it just ruins a women’s body inside and out and finding the right one is a serious struggle but I haven’t been on any in like 4 months, it’s been so wonderful. Anyways the plan, eat better and get out bodies in shape to look better then ever for ourselves and our son.
I’m doing better and it feels better.
We finally had a legit ament conversation as to why its been so tense between us and now I feel absolutely worthless.
I now feel like all my excuses are pitiful for even mentioning and I SHOULD just be a better parent, girlfriend, maid and cook while he’s still/always better then me in every way.
I’m Glad we talked…but at the same time I wish I didn’t hear it cause it just hurts to basically hear
“Your still not doing good enough for what I’m use to.”
I need a good cry.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
This one is forever…
Relationships and life are made to challenge your strength and how much it can all be pushed but saying cruel things its hard to be tuff about it all.
It sucks and severely huts a persons feelings when you hear “I’m done with you” and “this is more important then the things you ask me to do”, never never on any circumstances is it ok to say things like that to your partner EVER!
Its just totally fucked on my part. Recovering mentally on my own for a year then you get something like that thrown in your face, might as well leave and never come back I think that would hurt less.
Feel like I’m being punished for things I never did.